It's 3.37am..Had the intention of finishing ALL my work before helping mummy out later...but somehow or rather,my mind is like 'jamming' up inside..can no longer take in neither can it produce answers to the question for my project,tutorial and lab practical questions.. my sister's boyfrend.i've never met someone whom is willing to give it all in a relationship or rather shud i say it's rare to find a guy who does so..7 years of their realtionship,me and him are no different from a sibling and a bestfrend.He's such a nice guy..He tries to be with my sister no matter how tired,moody,sad,angry or happy..It's like as though nothing else matters to him when he's with my sister.I'm not sure if my other sibling does notice the little things he does for my Sis Nad.. He would always try to be with my sister.When sis Nad is sick in the middle of the night despite his night shift and him being tired,he would still make his way to our house to take sis Nad to the hospital and accompany her. When sis Nad intends to go out and get even just A stuff or two,he would wanna accompany her willingly. He would also take the INITATIVE to take sis Nad out for dinner or supper after work even though he knows that a long day will be waiting for him the next day. He would also text my sis every part of the day to ensure that she has eaten,she is okay and everything is fine..He would also open up his pair of ears willingly and hear my sister sharing or complaining about work,frends,personal stuff and many more... 7 years together and yet it seems that they've only been together for a few months.. with him showering my sister with his sincerest and endless love. It really suprise and amaze me because things and sacrifices done like this are usually the first few months or rather the first 1-2 years of a relationship.But it's already been 7 years. He is someone whom does not only say that he wants to be with my sister but in fact he SHOWED it..no doubt that he loves my sister and i can count on him to take care of my sister few years down the road.insya'allah!amin!The commitment,initiative is all there..and he need not go around telling people what he has done for my sister for people can see it for themselves... Okay,back to where i was,school has been very hectic and somehow or rather im thankful that im able to balance everything..Due dates for assignments and quizes are all drawing nearer. I've been trying very hard to be consistent with my work for i believe whatever i put it, will be whatever that i get and insya'allah i'll get the GPA which i've always aimed for this semester.AMIN! Sweetheart..Sweetheart has been my pillar of support..In terms of studies and all..When i'm on the verge of giving up,she would encourage and motivate me to continue striving and not to give up..For there's no way one can reach up the ladder with both hands in their pockets..Not only that, she also has always been there for me in terms of emotional support..and never fail to lend a shoulder and opening up her pair of ears whenever i tend to pour out how i feel. I appreciate for the fact that she always gives me idea and suggestions even though at times not..her pair of ears and shoulders are MORE then enough to me...She also NEVER fail to tickle me pink with each passing day..one of the few reasons why i love being around her..She knows what kind of position im in and never fail to paint a smile on my face which without her realising makes me forget about all the sorrows deep inside me...She's MORE then a frend to me..She's even closer to me then my own family..I see her almost everyday for long hours in school and when im home it's like my social sourronding is cut off..mum is busy with her work,abg with his jamming,kak ain and sis nad with both work and partners,adik..adik is the only one whom i always talk to the most but not as much as compared to sweetheart..Thats one of the reason why sweetheart is no different from my own kin..To me she's not only like a sister but everything...The only one whom understads me in and out...The only one whom can tolerate me of my lame jokes and my everything..and i hope the person in her will grow in my boyfrend,the pillar whom i can lean on,pour out my sorrows or when laughing my ass off..it'll still be there for me..and hopefully as time goes by...things will change...because for now,i know i can only count on him..because im not that close to my family... I've tried.i've tried to share all my feelings with my boyfrend but it somehow seems 'uninteresting' or to put it in a harsher way...he wun be interested to do so...When we meet,we met for only a few hours to carry out our plans and by then..there will be no time to 'share'...He's busy with family,training and work..Especially work lately..I rarely get a text message from him or rather after a text message or two being sent out,i wud only get it back a few hours later..ask me and i say...i miss him badly deep inside:'( and at times it does disappoint me..the one that i thought i could get the love showered from to compensate for the love which i never had since young is not there..But i cant possibly blame him..he also has his duties to carry out..Never the less i love him for wat he was in the past,wat he is now and wat he will be in the future.. I know wat it feels like not to be loved by closed ones especially family..And since he has it all,i try to complete it as a whole...trying my very best to put in initiative and commitment in our realtionship..I really-really love him deep in my heartand i hope somehow or rather he can feel it.Ask me and i'll say he's my priority to to everything..i would do anything just to be with him...despite me being tired,angry,sad or in any emotion state...for nothing else matters when im with him...