dissapointed,sad,mad..

just name it..

all that frustration feeling is inside me..

from the ferst start and fer the fact that i wanna be a teacher,

none supported me right from the start..

all were doubting me..

& no one knows what it feels like to be in that position..

from the time whereby i told everyone that i wanna be a teacher..

"you" all doubted me...

trying your very best to 'shrink' my motivation towards becoming a teacher..

all i need is just ur support and nothing else matters..

but why does it seems so hard for you to give me that encouragement and boost my motivation?

& for the fact that someone whom is NOT of my next-of-kin is very-very willing to help me..

just hurts me..

but,thanks to "you" all..

i'm not 'sinking' but instead im growing stronger then yesterday...

i just got to say if..IF something were to happen to "you" all one day,

just dun come knocking on my door...

cos thats the time when...........

i'll just walk away...

i didn't expect you to turn me down during the time when i needed you the most..

the time whereby i thought i could count on you..

but now,you've shown it all...

& i'll treat it like as though we weren't related to each other...

it might sound cruel of me to say this..

but this is how i feel..

& here i am pouring it out...

there's so much more for me to express and say..

but it's so hard to put it into simple sentences...